Amber Heard is afraid of being sued again by her ex-husband Johnny Depp – even though she still admits to loving him.
This was revealed in Part 2 of Heard’s exclusive interview with NBC News’ Savannah GuthrieHeard’s first since the highly publicized libel lawsuit between her and Depp.
The actress said “absolutely” when Gutherie asked her if, after all, as she told the court during their libel trial, she “still had love” for Depp.
“I love him. I loved him with all my heart,” Heard said. “And I tried my best to make a deeply broken relationship work and I couldn’t.”
“I have no bad feelings or ill will towards him,” she added. “I know it can be hard to understand or it can be very easy to understand if you’ve ever loved someone.”
In the first part of the interview that aired on Tuesday, Heard said she believed “the vast majority of this trial took place on social media” and spoke of the vitriol directed at her by Depp supporters.
She reflected further on the public’s perception of her in the segment on Wednesday, after Gutherie asked Heard about a text in which Depp promised her “total worldwide humiliation”.
“I’m not a good victim, I get it,” she said. “I am not a sympathetic victim, I am not a perfect victim. But when I testified, I asked the jury to see me and hear their own words, which is a promise to do so.
Depp sued Heard for $50 million, alleging she defamed him in a 2018 Washington Post op-ed in which she wrote about her experience with domestic violence, though it was not mentioned by her name.
She countersued him for $100 million and they were both found guilty of defamation, although the jury awarded Depp significantly more damages.
Heard told Guthrie she “took for granted what I assumed was my right to speak” and was now nervous about speaking out.
“I’m afraid that no matter what I do, no matter what I say or how I say it, every step I take will present another opportunity for that kind of silence,” Heard said in response to Guthrie asking him if she had any concerns. that Depp could sue her again in the future. “That’s what I guess a libel suit is supposed to do – take your vote.”
As for the ‘Aquaman’ star’s future, she said she can now focus on being a full-time mother to her one-year-old daughter.